Hello all it's me Stu..............bored, awake and kind-of creative......... but positivley?.......... I just don't know?

It's very late (well late enough for me !)..........01:32 and I'm just blown awake from a hairy spider dream! Makes a change from the keys and the huge blue goldfish.

Thoughts, thoughts,thoughts.... tried a little nightcap tonight to avoid this....... but here I am! Wide awake in the middle of the night, just as I hoped I wouldn't be!

Listened to music ....didn't help........had a lavender bath didn't help (I must be well HARD!) I even watched WWE, (World Wrestlng....something or other!) it gets my 9 year old to sleep. I just thought that those 50-something year-olds need to wear baggy clothes, leave off the body oil and stop all that fighting each other they look a little gay....... and as to the WWE women they contain more silicon than the whole of California!

Anyway why am I awake?....worried I expext. K is about to face the biggest challenge of her entire life! Gulp!

I have seen some bad, bad .............evil things with 26 years working with the MOD but this grips me sooooooo much harder.

I don't just worry for me and my kids I worry for my family. Her Mum and Sister must be frantic. I had a fight with her sister recently and feel bad I should be more tolerent........even of ginger people who press all my buttons (Sis I LOVE Ya!............no really I do...........ish!.....you know I do I'm just cranky..............Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm)

Anyway I need to get some bloody sleep soon or I will actually turn into Stu-Van-Winkle

Readers befor I go and if you have not read the full story up to this point just let me fill you in..................

I LOVE MY WIFE XXX